Hurt Badly

last nite i was have a terrible wif her
tiz fight consider is d most terrible hurt n sad for me
d reason we fight for is bcuz of N (again)
i knew N is her best fren, i shouldn't have such selfish thinking
but, i juz can't control myself
i told her sometimes we should treat ourself selfish abit
bcuz it is one of d way to protect ourself

she cried n cried n cried said tat i dun understand her
i try to comfort her but she said my words r juz a bullshit
i was hurt badly when i heard tat on tat time
i started fed up n cried n told her wat is my thought
i slept aside n look at our photo for so long
my tears dropping out again
u told me tat N n i r important person to u in ur life
u juz want to live happily n sweetly wif me without any quarrel everyday

sometimes i'll flash back everything tat i did either is correct or wrong
sometimes i even will think tat would u feel happy n free if i let u go? (even myself also can't let go tiz relationship)
but i'd plan alot of things for our future
bi, i really love u
i'm juz a normal human who also have emotional, jealousy n hard feeling

YOU MEAN ALOT TO ME